joanne: in my own words

Let me sing a song for you,
Please sit and listen to the tune,
This ain't no song of greatness,
But only a voice of a girl,
Singing about her world.

So let me sing a song for you,
Please please please, do listen to the tune,
All I wish is for you to hear me,
As I sing about my days,
Now sing with me if you may.

Monday, August 2, 2010


  1. yesterday, she decided to take some fresh air by walking alone in the park. she wanted to think quietly about the situation they were going through alone by herself. knowing and accepting the fact they were now apart and trying very hard to maintain something as basic as friendship, she let her mind wander off on how she should lead her life after this. wait. for starters, could she even start this new life? why must this be so hard and difficult? why was she feeling like she was the only one suffering the pain? tears began forming in her eyes and rolled down her cheeks so quickly they became streams. she was not able to catch those tears in time by wiping them away. the sky above also cried with her. rain drops landed on her hair and some landed on her face. she looked up into the sky helplessly and that was when she remembered. the rain reminded her of the time both of them were helplessly caught in the rain on his motorbike. there were no raincoats so they were drenched wet. they found shelter at a nearest Shell petrol station which had been closed down and abandoned. there were several other motorcyclists who were suffering the same fate from the rain. soaking and shivering from the cold of the rain and the wind, he gave her his coat for warmth and wiped her dry with his hands as if they could absorb water. nevertheless, she was contented and "captured" that sweet moment in her heart. and after that day, every time it rained, this moment would flash back before her eyes. so vivid and alive.
  2. she was driving back after meeting her client down town that afternoon. traffic was so bad that it jammed horribly and coincidentally, her car stopped a few minutes in front of a 24-hour McDonald's outlet. that very minute when she stared inside the windows of the outlet and saw a few couples savoring their McValue meals by the side of the windows, she remembered him again. back when they were still studying in the university, and when exams were just around the corner, both of them would head to the nearest McD outlet and sat there the whole day studying, accompanied by 2 cups of coffee. they drank so much coffee while studying there until they could not sleep at night. they would often laughed about it after that. it was one funny memory she had about the both of them.
  3. it was lunch hour. and she parked her car and wanted to cross to the other side of the road to buy her lunch. as she was standing there by the edge of the road and waiting for her chance to cross that ever-busy road in town, she suddenly remembered. whenever the both of them crossed the road, be it a busy one or one with very few vehicles, he would always stand on her right in the direction of oncoming traffic, hold her right hand with his left tightly and led her across the road. in the beginning when he started doing this for her, he would tell her that if a car comes crashing in their direction, at least it's not her who would get hurt first. and at that moment, her heart skipped a beat and she quickly "captured" the moment in her mind.
  4. it was a holiday she was looking forward to, because it was their first holiday together out of the country. and she had not seen him for 2 months already and now, she was walking in his direction with every step swifter and her eyes on him intensely. it was really a holiday to remember. they visited many places, they went shopping, they took many couple photos together, played on the beach where the big waves roll in, they ate romantic dinners together, talked late into the night, hugged and kissed each other and did many other things together. in one simple sentence, they were really happy to be near one another again. but little did they know that when they parted at the airport that day, that was the last time they would ever see each other as a couple. that was the last holiday they would have together. and that was the last kiss and hug they would share together. she wished she had seen this end coming and was able to "freeze" the moment longer and enjoy it. she did not manage to "capture" those last moments. she cried.
  5. it was her first birthday which was celebrated with her friends at the university. it was her sophomore year. she was really happy that her friends threw her a surprise birthday party and thought how lucky she was to have friends like those. but that night, she got luckier when one of her friends whom she had been having a crush on, "confessed" his feelings towards her. in the car, as both of them were sitting side by side each other at the back of the car after the celebration, his left hand had "accidentally" touched her right hand which she placed candidly on the car seat. and when he realized that she didn't move her hand away, he grabbed it and held it. he whispered something tenderly into her ears. suddenly she felt warmth sweeping thru her body and she was never happier than she was at that moment. until the day she dies, she will forever remember this "captured" moment in her heart because that "captured" moment was when a love story was born - her first love.
These were some of the many vivid memories she had shared with him. She would want to remember and keep them this way through writing them down in words. There are more to come.

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